At least that's what I'm feeling..I never thought I'd go through this painful journey in my life.
Chambering life was not as I expected..The hardship,the struggle,the unpleasant moments relating to work,I've known that long time, thus the reason I was ready to sign up for this..but the fact that I seem not to be 'cut out' in the legal world seems so dreadful.I think I dont measure up to those lawyer's standards..I'm far from being a good chambee,let alone the best or excellent one
I still remember that moment before degree life starts..jpa scholarship,average though not so remarkable grade during foundation looked so promising that life would be smooth sailing until I graduate with LLB 4 years later..just when I thought I had it all figured out,chambering life seems not to be on my side..I hardly convince my boss that I could actually be doing greatly during the 9-months term,when in fact I knew all along that they seem not to be have trust with me to do variety kinds of work..options seem to be so limited for a person like me
Gosh,writing this down is enough to make me feel so dreadful with my life now :(
I need some comfort before I end my chambering life,although I'm not seeing any wonderful moments coming during my long call soon..I just need some assurance that what I'm going through is gonna benefit me despite not being cut out for this profession
It's so complicated to deal with this kind of feeling..as if I never stumbled upon life's test :/ it's a novelty to me
I hope this shall pass soon,coz I know it definitely would...
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