Of life's most difficult test (as of now)

As a mere creation to Allah S.W.T the greatest, we are bound by all life's circumstances-the good and the bad..and more often than not,it is how we respond to the bad life's events that define our true strength and weaknesses, than to the good ones.It is kind of funny to think sometimes that it actually takes a lot of difficulties to go thru and swallow in finding ourselves and put our life or worldview into perspective..But that has always been Allah's promise in the Quran  to those who believe-do thou not think that you believe and shall not be tested? (rephrased)

The cycle of a human's life is so predictable where at one moment where you are on top and already passed that difficult test/ life's greatest hurdles,you are not necessarily gonna remember how you actually made it.Even if you did remember,the moment your life hits rock bottom again, you seem to be clueless all over again as to how picking yourself up..that seems so familiar right? I guess that's Our Lord's greatest power which is perfectly put in the aforesaid verse..

I just went thru devastating moments in my life.Well, tbh I had one or two previously, but they are for different reasons and things,so this time around,the devastating moments make me feel as overwhelmed as I did previously.In the following para,I shall write those devastating moments/events in sub-topics for ease of reading 

1.the current jobs

Chambering life,as in my previous post,does not turn out to be as what I'm expecting-

How's life dudeee

Messed up.

At least that's what I'm feeling..I never thought I'd go through this painful journey in my life.

Chambering life was not as I expected..The hardship,the struggle,the unpleasant moments relating to work,I've known that long time, thus the reason I was ready to sign up for this..but the fact that I seem not to be 'cut out' in the legal world seems so dreadful.I think I dont measure up to those lawyer's standards..I'm far from being a good chambee,let alone the best or excellent one 

I still remember that moment before degree life starts..jpa scholarship,average though not so remarkable grade during foundation looked so promising that life would be smooth sailing until I graduate with LLB 4 years later..just when I thought I had it all figured out,chambering life seems not to be on my side..I hardly convince my boss that I could actually be doing greatly during the 9-months term,when in fact I knew all along that they seem not to be have trust with me to do variety kinds of work..options seem to be so limited for a person like me

Gosh,writing this down is enough to make me feel so dreadful with my life now :(

I need some comfort before I end my chambering life,although I'm not seeing any wonderful moments coming during my long call soon..I just need some assurance that what I'm going through is gonna benefit me despite not being cut out for this profession

It's so complicated to deal with this kind of feeling..as if I never stumbled upon life's test :/ it's a novelty to me

I hope this shall pass soon,coz I know it definitely would...